The guys at Girls Boarding School gave me some 'homework' and were asking for a letter to you, a few days after my first audience with them. Here we go, nosy pack! :-P

Well, I had a few days of thinking about everything. And really, whichever way you look at it: spending my first few hours at Girls Boarding School was very likely one of the most important days in my life. Of course, getting naked in front of stranger people, crying like a chicken in front of 2 cameras and feeling the pain until you almost feel nothing at all any more, all this was in no way easy for me. Even when things were over, on my way back home, I still didn't get the tears out of my eyes for many hours. Probably not because of the pain alone, but the entire experience, all this submission, the embarrassement, and yes of course, the pain. It took me a while to get my head around all this.

But you know what? I am more than grateful for my first audition! And even more grateful that GBS accepted my application at all! You may wonder what made me applying at GBS? Please boys, I may talk about it in a while, not just now. I'm a quite young one, but it really doesn't mean that I am entirely innocent person. I did some questionable things in my life that I am not exactly proud about, and serving a corporal punishment sentence is what I was longing for since ages. I am just glad that GBS accepted putting the actual punishments into different stories. This way I could keep the background history for myself, but receive the punishment that I was looking for, for getting some past things clear in my head.

My bottom? Still now, many days after my first GBS audition? Blue... green.... some areas almost black. Littered with all these nasty welts from the cane. Still swollen, still hard as stone. Really, it neither looks nice, nor feels nice. It also brought me into some serious crisis in a locker room yesterday (different story, next time). I even had to skip university for a few days, cause really, no chance on sitting straight for more than only a few minutes. So I spent quite some time prone on my bed, bringing my diary up to date and thinking about my next auditions.

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